and so again, i've become a victim to my own gullibility and stupidity. what does it have to take for me to learn the lesson, "men are pigs???" hahaha! well, not all.... it's just that i think most, if not all, of the guys that i meet are such.

i feel betrayed, but not really. it's not as if we have a commitment or some special arrangement, right? but why, of all people, does it have to be with a friend's friend??? as to the other party, my god, i even treated him as my own friend!!! but then, we're not really friends so why should i feel betrayed? then again, i still feel betrayed, but not really. uhm, do i make sense???

i feel vengeful. i wanna play their game and get back at them... but i can't.... and so, the evil in me wants to take it all out on some random guy. but then, the better part of me is asking, what for? what good will it do me? hence, i'll just let it be. besides, i shouldn't stoop to their level.

do i feel bitter??? yes, i do. as bitter as bile could get.

i know that it's not fair to them that i feel this way. but then again, i can't help it. my bestfriend suggested that i should just be happy for them. my reply: I CAN'T AND I WON'T. they don't deserve that from me.

for the umpteenth time, c'est la vie! and i just wish that this is finally a wake up call for me. next chapter please.... =)