i've been carefully thinking and i thought - to hell with pride, i'm gonna swallow it now! it hurts that you tell me about him. it hurts that you tell me about your plans for him. it hurts to know that you really love him. why??? precisely because i really, really love you! and it hurts more to know that i'm not the one you love. yes, i'm still hung up on you. yes, i am not over you. and yes, this is prideless pining. but then, i really can't help it as much as i want to pacify it. i've learned to accept. i've learned to compromise. i've learned to understand. all because of you, just for you, only for you. i cherish every moment that i spend with you - every smile, every conversation, every fuzion drink, every cigarette butt. i long to bearhug you. i long to snuggle with you. i long to kiss you. i long to take care of your. but then again, all i can do is just long for you.... i love you so much!!! it's just sad that you feel otherwise.... ='(