characters:
- you
- 1, who is someone you really like
- 2, who is 1's boyfriend
- 3, who is your friend, who happens to be 1's friend as well
- 4, who is 2's ex-boyfriend

scenarios:
- 2 denies that he has a boyfriend; therefore, 2 denies 1
- 2 flirts with 4
- 2 asks someone to compare who's cuter, 1 or 4; 2 says, if 1 is cuter, then he'll stick with 1; otherwise, he'll go back to 4
- you witness the previous scenarios
- 3 also witnesses the previous scenarios; 2 even asks 3 not to tell 1 about what he is doing

what will you do after?
a. tell 1 about what you and 3 witnessed; you have proof (yes you do, a transcript)
b. tell 1 to be wary of the people around him, that things are not always exactly what they seem to be
c. keep your mouth shut; it's their fucking problem
d. uhm, the sun is the center of the solar system, and moving around it are the planets; apparently, you couldn't care less

what i did?
b. tell 1 to be wary of the people around him, that things are not always exactly what they seem to be

result:
it backfired. sometimes, even if you have good intentions, you end up being the bad guy. sigh!

will you do the same thing? if not, what will you do in this situation? humor me....

and so, the universe has conspired again.... and for the umpteenth time, it plotted against me. it's a good thing that there wasn't any emotional investment (or if ever there was, as adi claims, it's at minimal); so, i'm not that much affected. nonetheless, it's still harsh since it wasn't a firsthand information. jem even found out about it before i did. he read it on somebody's blog and told me about the bad news. yes, it's bad news for me; albeit, it's rather good news for the people directly involved. it's funny and so ironic that i'm not the mr. right for the person whom i deemed to be my mr. right. sorry mai, i told you there isn't a boy to boot. it's more like i was booted out. hehehe! next time i meet someone so eligible, i hope the titan destiny will be on my side for a change. and like what i always say, "c'est la vie!" hence, i'm back on the prowl. on to the next guy please....

earlier this evening, we had our annual medical exam for the company. here are the exams i had to undergo....

a. vital stats - apparently, i am only 180cm tall, which is only 5'11"; as opposed to what i've always known, which is 183cm or 6'. argh! now, i'm 1" shorter. could it be scoliosis?!?! or maybe osteoporosis?!?! wahahaha!

b. drug test - nothing much.... i just had to fill up 2 small containers with my pee, and they extracted blood from me.

c. dental exam - the dentist told me that one of my molars needs a root canal. ouch!!! dental prophylaxis is scheduled next month.

d. optical exam - i just had one a month ago with the resident optometrist of the optical shop in gateway mall. however, the optometrist from grepalife said that I was underexamined!!! my lens' grade now is 100/100 but apparently, it needs 50/50 more! grrr!!! i was duped!

e. physical exam - the exam that i dreaded most.... the interview about my medical history was okay as well as the usual breathe-in-beathe-out routine. however, i hate the genital and anal exams. when it was time for it, the doctor asked me to stand near a sink and told me, "you have to drop your pants and jocks for this." and so i giggled and said, "uhm, do i have to do this?" hahaha! then the doctor said, "well, you can defer it." and so i told him that i'd rather not do it. ayaw ko talaga noh! wehehehe!!!

i just had dinner with the wizard earlier. i did not enjoy the meal but i had fun with our conversation and the company so much. i lost my appetite but my eyes were feasting. i was a bit tired but i've been rejuvenated. wish i would have more chances to spend time with him....

gosh! looking at this pic makes me recall the day when i portrayed the role of st. bernadette soubirous' father at a school play. boy, did i look so innocent! but don't be deceived, i was such a brat - and still am. hahaha!

gee! i miss being a kid. i miss getting whatever i wanted. i miss playing jack stones. i miss joining quiz bees. i miss my mom's cakes. i miss the sago-gulaman sold in front of don bosco. i miss playing the piano. i miss my archie and marvel comics collection. i miss having monthly allowance. i miss eating green mango and singkamas with bagoong sold by peddlers. i miss "the visionaries". i miss playing sipa. i miss outwitting teachers. i miss texas chewing gum. i miss the pizza sold at the holy spirit (yes, i studied there too.) canteen. i miss answering math problems. i miss playing agawan-base. i miss getting shukbak (hahaha!) from the resort. i miss seeing my name on the top 10 students list every academic quarter. i miss coloring books. i miss "ang tv". i miss wearing a uniform. i miss plastic balloon. i miss.... yada-yada-yada....

sheesh! if only we could turn back time....

i am so elated!!! i just received another great news from my manager just a couple of minutes ago. what's it about? my salary increase!!! woohoo!!! finally, my salary is now at par with my two partners. of course, i cannot react so much here in the office, since my partners shouldn't know about it. thus, i'm just venting out my emotions here. so just imagine me raving with a shrilly voice and my eyes popping out of the sockets.

hmmm.... i think it's about time to work.... wehehehe!!!

it's been around two weeks since i've first chatted with the wizard, and only last night was i able to meet up with him vis-a-vis. no, it was not a date - nothing romantic! we just saw each other in a club where we both frequent. we didn't go there together, we were with our respective group of friends; although we knew beforehand that we were both going there since the club is closing temporarily for renovation.

actually, we've seen each other a week before in the same club. i was actually eyeing on this cute guy with a nice black striped polo. of course, being the maarte that i am, i did not approach him. (if he likes me too, then he do the approaching noh! hehehe!) i later found out that the guy i was eyeing on was in fact the wizard. apparently, he saw me as well but was too shy to approach me.

and so we've finally met. i must admit, the wizard is indeed cute and is really nice; but how does he think of me? i know i am really cute (wahaha!) but then again, to each his own. moreover, i think i was not bitchy so i was relatively nice to him. there's only this one thing that was a bit of a turn-off: his high-pitched voice, which sounded so pa-girl! (mas pa-gurl pa ata sa boses ko in front of my close friends!) however, over-all, i really like him. now the bottomline is: is he interested with me too?

with the things that happened last night (i'm supposed to enumerate them but then, huwag na lang.), i think he doesn't.... or if he does, he doesn't like me the way that i like him.... tipong he wants to be friends with me lang. sigh! i know that i am being very pessimistic but then, baka ganun lang talaga.... double sigh!

oh well, c'est la vie! =)

malabo....

bahala na....

nakakalito....

ang gulo....

ewan....

sigh....

darn it....

i am so paranoid....

so pessimistic....

but then again....

what if the things i've been thinking are true...?

what if it's not meant to be...?

what if...?

sigh....

i got a very good news yesterday morning from my manager who happens to be in gaithersburg, maryland now. she said that our vp finally confirmed our u.s. trip on january! apparently, the global convention last january was very successful that the big bosses had decided to do it again. yipee!!! we will then apply for our visa renewal as soons as she arrives here in manila. happy!!!

i think i have found my wizard.... and he has cast a very strong spell on me - stronger than the amorentia (HP6) potion. not even dumbledore or gandalf could deflect. love the kilig factor! *blush* dizizit na sana.... sigh! i guess i'll just have to cross my fingers, pray to the supreme being and hope everything works out fine. hail goddess luna!

editor's note: luna - goddess namin ni rich